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Post by Luna on Mar 28, 2012 16:19:47 GMT -5
Every vampire has gone through an awakening. What is your story? When did you realize that you were a vampire?
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Post by aremese on Jul 8, 2012 0:10:42 GMT -5
To Anybody Who Cares,
I apologize for my consistant posts, but I just seem to not address everything.
What I am explaining is more so a question, then a description.
I would like to ask a real vampire if I am awakening.
For a couple days, I have noticed myself changing, more so spiritually. My intuition and psychic abilities have become more powerful and other strange things have been happening. For example, I had a friend over yesterday, the whole time he was here he was complaining that he was tired and before he got here, so was I, which was weird for me because it was 1pm. When he arrived was when he began to become fatigued and tired, I proceeded to then become elated, full of energy. The more I was the less he was. He slept over and the next morning he awoke exclaiming, "My head, my head!" I got him asprin and asked him if he needed anything.
Now I am just learning that I am nocturnal so I have been up for a while now. FTW.
After he said his head stopped hurting, he went home. Right when he left, 11:30am, I felt exhausted, which I know now is because it was daytime. I developed a head ache and collapsed for 5 hours. Fuck me! haha. I woke up to my mom home for work screaming, "wake up, damnit!" At this time my body felt a little more soothed and almost, euphoric? For some reason when my family got home I was slightly awake again, but tired still. The part I dont get is that I knew what my friend dreampt about, an 2012 audi a6, and I dont even know what that car is! I knew what my family members were thinking and all day I could predict what they would say next. And my phone wouldn't let me call people. And then I got a head ache and then the tv would turn on. And tonight, I am having craving for something, but like an empty feeling, a longing, like a missing energy or aura. And I can see what people think of me and know their personality before meeting them. Okay SORRY! Oh, oh gosh, thats a lot. Okay if you have a question about something ask. Sorry too much.
PS: make sure you read my other coment in Vampires and Vampirism>Psi Vampires and Energy Workers>Basic Energy Work.
Regards,
Aremese D. Coloske
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Post by NeedlzInk on Nov 24, 2012 11:26:03 GMT -5
This is my story.
well its no so much a story as something thats very real for me and has been super hard to deal with for years.
I guess It started when I was younger. I was always so sensitive to people. The way they thought. Peoples emotions. I was sensitive to sound. Even now still the slightest noise from the t.v. when it isn't even on drives me nuts. I someones have to go around and unplug everything in my apartment just so get some relaxation. Going to restaurants or public bathrooms. The smells. Public bathrooms are the worst. I had a hard time finding anything to eat. I have a sever allergy to lactose. I have allergy's to onions, tomatoes, green peppers. some breads, strawberries. Even till this day i find it extremely hard to even want to eat because im like allergic to everything. when i was in my mid teens i just could never find anything to eat or drink. I would seriously spend hours in a grocery store i was so hungry but everything i would normally eat was not appealing or i would got o the hot food section and find nothing. I would go from fast food restaurants and real restaurants. the only thing i could tolerate was a mountain dew. I still have that problem. Even how strong I was. There was one time my grandmother put up a book shelf. But she put to many books on it and it started to fall. It almost fell on my cat. But I ran and held this huge bookshelf up. Thing was full of books and almost reached the ceiling. It was falling but I caught it and waited for my mom to help get it off of me. this is when I was 10. i had been having all of these problems since I was little. And then when i was about 14 everything started getting worse. I would get migraines in the morning from the lighting outside. and it sucked because i had to walk to school every morning. My sleeping schedule got thrown way off. Going to high school was always such a pain. everyone. everything they thought and felt just drove me nuts. Then i started getting depressed. Everyone just seemed to different. I felt so different from everyone. I was considered to be alternative. I enjoyed and still enjoy expressing myself through art, fashion, music and dance. I even had friends. But I still had this sadness that i couldn't reach out to anyone. no one would understand. I would get so overwhelmingly frustrated. I was tired, hungry, lonely and I would take it out on my family. So like any concerned parent would do my mother took me to tons and tons of doctors. My physicals were already normal if not better than almost everyone in my age group. My mental health tests came back normal. NO amount of medications would help with sleep or my ability to eat anything. Or the fact that i knew the guy that sits next to me in class wanted to bang this girl. Or that this girl in my biology class was super popular and pretty wanted to kill herself. Only I knew. And I did not know what to do. So here I am a few years later coming to terms with research and my awakening. I have been from website to website and tried talking to many people. all they ever thought was i was either crazy or role playing. I am dead serious. I am a vampire. I crave energy from other sources. From other peoples energy or blood. No one had to tell me. I just figured it out for myself. I am still struggling trying to find ways to cope and live a nice life. I don't have a doner yet. And I just don't want to feel so alone anymore.
A.L.
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Post by connor on Apr 25, 2014 10:59:13 GMT -5
Hey some guy said i might be a vampire because my eyes feel like there burning if i go in the the sunlight also there's a black ring around my eyes ye and if i spend all day in the sun it looks like i haven't slept in 2 days i also tried eye drops and nothing happened so can tell me what's going on because i have an edge to do something crazy.
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Post by jade on May 5, 2014 17:31:27 GMT -5
I´ll try to summary my "awakening".
As I said in my presentation, I think I might not be a vampire.
As I was very young, like 4 years old. Didn´t thought much as normal children did. I thought that there was something more after death, but also feared that there could be nothing after death. That´s why I thought sleeping was a waste of life. Since I might spend eternity in death after my life ended.
So I decided to retain awareness while sleeping. At least if there was something while sleeping, might learn from that to be prepared for eternity.
The thing was and is, that I just learned to be aware while sleep. Since then I haven´t really rest. Because even while I´m dreaming, Im aware that I´m in my bed, that I´m sleeping, and I´m even able to feel if there is an energy entering my room (might be energy from the living or from unknown).
There was a time someone (who I don´t know what it was)was always near to me and drained my energy. It was not a human energy, I can´t even tell if it was something that was once alive.
But since then even when that thing dissapeared from my life, I have from time to time episodes, when I´m very desesperate for energy.
Have gone to doctors, and I don´t have anime or things like that my thyroid is fine... still I have problems to keep up my daily activities when this hungers awakes on me.
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Post by clementre on May 21, 2014 16:23:53 GMT -5
i despise what am i absolutely hate im vampire by birth
its making life a misery the awakening driving me mad if there are any others out there
i have sympathy to your discomfort i have ton put up with it my
awakening began at 13 leading into my twenty's i know for i am one im very misunderstood
for start the other is these bizarre events i experienced time to time
my cravings to feed and to add on top that no sleep much i burn in the day
in sun i can do many things could not in beginning after consuming my feed
as energy comes back im very tired during the day and much more i experienced and seen and felt
if there are others out there like me i know what your going through hold on tight keep well hidden and becareful who you speak to
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Post by clementre on May 21, 2014 16:47:51 GMT -5
i despise what am i absolutely hate im vampire by birth its making life a misery the awakening driving me mad if there are any others out there i have sympathy to your discomfort i have ton put up with it my awakening began at 13 leading into my twenty's i know for i am one im very misunderstood for start the other is these bizarre events i experienced time to time my cravings to feed and to add on top that no sleep much i burn in the day in sun i can do many things could not in beginning after consuming my feed as energy comes back im very tired during the day and much more i experienced and seen and felt if there are others out there like me i know what your going through hold on tight keep well hidden and becareful who you speak to my story began when i was 13 in 2005 i was asleep in my bed one night we were having bad weather that we all gone to bed i was sleeping in my warm bed when strange figure in dream state i something bit and attacked me in my dream state then all sudden i saw a hand covering my mouth i was really freaked out but i could not scream the figure covered my mouth i was lying there one moment then he whispered something in my ear then before i knew it i fell asleep in morning i woke up felt sore on my neck and weak as time went by i began to crave meat products and felt tired during the day from my college years some my relatives believe my uncle might visited me but i did not know what to think i still go punctured wounds on my left side my neck are now scars which is strange im still trying to figure out why? ever since then i had feeling deep down something was not normal about me until i reached 21 when i realised i needed to look deeper into this i have found out truth which kills me i don't like what i am i feel trapped and confided by society and governments that annoy me to no end the only thing i like this im stronger and ten times more intelligent that all for others may like i despise what i am |
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Post by Ilyarri on Oct 9, 2014 14:06:18 GMT -5
Ive been starting to feel weird too. I love vampires ( not like twilight) I was always amused with them, and so was my friend. You might think I'm crazy, but I was so amused that I found a bunch of vampire spells and did them all. I did it on a regular night and nothing happened. A year later, I'm still amused so I got more spells and did it on a bloody moon eclipse and one spell requires a necklace which I am wearing now. In the morning I had a gigantic headache and looked in the mirror, my iris had a big thick circle around it. I know all vampires had that. I had a headache the WHOLE DAY. And I felt weak in the morning. My skin hurts in the sun and my iris black circle thingy gets thicker. Today, my grandma told me to turn off her lamp and it's kinda tall. I tried to turn it off as I was looking at the light. Then all of a sudden, I started feeling tired then I felt like blacking out so I layed down on the couch. Idk if im going through awakening or not but can someone please help. Please contact me Instagram: ilyarri kik: arrilove123 Thank you
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Post by ilyarri on Oct 9, 2014 14:07:46 GMT -5
Ive been starting to feel weird too. I love vampires ( not like twilight) I was always amused with them, and so was my friend. You might think I'm crazy, but I was so amused that I found a bunch of vampire spells and did them all. I did it on a regular night and nothing happened. A year later, I'm still amused so I got more spells and did it on a bloody moon eclipse and one spell requires a necklace which I am wearing now. In the morning I had a gigantic headache and looked in the mirror, my iris had a big thick circle around it. I know all vampires had that. I had a headache the WHOLE DAY. And I felt weak in the morning. My skin hurts in the sun and my iris black circle thingy gets thicker. Today, my grandma told me to turn off her lamp and it's kinda tall. I tried to turn it off as I was looking at the light. Then all of a sudden, I started feeling tired then I felt like blacking out so I layed down on the couch. Idk if im going through awakening or not but can someone please help. Please contact me Instagram: ilyarri kik: arrilove12345 Thank you |
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Post by ineedanswersplease on Oct 16, 2015 15:44:46 GMT -5
Hey some guy said i might be a vampire because my eyes feel like there burning if i go in the the sunlight also there's a black ring around my eyes ye and if i spend all day in the sun it looks like i haven't slept in 2 days i also tried eye drops and nothing happened so can tell me what's going on because i have an edge to do something crazy. Hi Conner, I know this may be a little to late but there is possibility for you. Through this post I feel your honesty so have you ever looked back at yourself and noticed things. Do you feel a little weaker in the Sun and get migraines? Do you have a noticeable darkish ring around your pupil? Do you feel like water just doesn't quench your thirst. Do you have a desire to have foods like bloody steak. Do you get sun-burnt easily in the Sun? If you answer yes to these questions then you probably are. And don't do anything stupid. I hope you have found out what your answer was because if you are one then you will know the true answer deep down. Hope this helps, but don't go crazy because well you should know the rules by now. |
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Post by ineedanswersplease on Oct 16, 2015 15:45:46 GMT -5
Ive been starting to feel weird too. I love vampires ( not like twilight) I was always amused with them, and so was my friend. You might think I'm crazy, but I was so amused that I found a bunch of vampire spells and did them all. I did it on a regular night and nothing happened. A year later, I'm still amused so I got more spells and did it on a bloody moon eclipse and one spell requires a necklace which I am wearing now. In the morning I had a gigantic headache and looked in the mirror, my iris had a big thick circle around it. I know all vampires had that. I had a headache the WHOLE DAY. And I felt weak in the morning. My skin hurts in the sun and my iris black circle thingy gets thicker. Today, my grandma told me to turn off her lamp and it's kinda tall. I tried to turn it off as I was looking at the light. Then all of a sudden, I started feeling tired then I felt like blacking out so I layed down on the couch. Idk if im going through awakening or not but can someone please help. Please contact me Instagram: ilyarri kik: arrilove12345 Thank you bub magic for that doesn't work that way itll more likely get you possessed. sorry but its true magic isn't meant for greed |
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Post by ineedanswersplease on Oct 16, 2015 15:49:51 GMT -5
i despise what am i absolutely hate im vampire by birth its making life a misery the awakening driving me mad if there are any others out there i have sympathy to your discomfort i have ton put up with it my awakening began at 13 leading into my twenty's i know for i am one im very misunderstood for start the other is these bizarre events i experienced time to time my cravings to feed and to add on top that no sleep much i burn in the day in sun i can do many things could not in beginning after consuming my feed as energy comes back im very tired during the day and much more i experienced and seen and felt if there are others out there like me i know what your going through hold on tight keep well hidden and becareful who you speak to You can not be born a vampire. those are just rumors. I think you should go see a doctor, and im not trying to be mean but you may have a lack of something in your blood idk. Go get some medical help its in your best interest. |
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Post by ineedanswersplease on Oct 16, 2015 15:53:29 GMT -5
I´ll try to summary my "awakening". As I said in my presentation, I think I might not be a vampire. As I was very young, like 4 years old. Didn´t thought much as normal children did. I thought that there was something more after death, but also feared that there could be nothing after death. That´s why I thought sleeping was a waste of life. Since I might spend eternity in death after my life ended. So I decided to retain awareness while sleeping. At least if there was something while sleeping, might learn from that to be prepared for eternity. The thing was and is, that I just learned to be aware while sleep. Since then I haven´t really rest. Because even while I´m dreaming, Im aware that I´m in my bed, that I´m sleeping, and I´m even able to feel if there is an energy entering my room (might be energy from the living or from unknown). There was a time someone (who I don´t know what it was)was always near to me and drained my energy. It was not a human energy, I can´t even tell if it was something that was once alive. But since then even when that thing dissapeared from my life, I have from time to time episodes, when I´m very desesperate for energy. Have gone to doctors, and I don´t have anime or things like that my thyroid is fine... still I have problems to keep up my daily activities when this hungers awakes on me. Hi Jade, you are not a vampire, but you may be doing astral travel or something other of the sorts idk i haven't done it but be safe, but im going to. Try to think sleep and do more running in the day make yourself physically tired. I hope that helps. |
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Post by jade on Oct 21, 2015 17:11:23 GMT -5
I´ll try to summary my "awakening". As I said in my presentation, I think I might not be a vampire. As I was very young, like 4 years old. Didn´t thought much as normal children did. I thought that there was something more after death, but also feared that there could be nothing after death. That´s why I thought sleeping was a waste of life. Since I might spend eternity in death after my life ended. So I decided to retain awareness while sleeping. At least if there was something while sleeping, might learn from that to be prepared for eternity. The thing was and is, that I just learned to be aware while sleep. Since then I haven´t really rest. Because even while I´m dreaming, Im aware that I´m in my bed, that I´m sleeping, and I´m even able to feel if there is an energy entering my room (might be energy from the living or from unknown). There was a time someone (who I don´t know what it was)was always near to me and drained my energy. It was not a human energy, I can´t even tell if it was something that was once alive. But since then even when that thing dissapeared from my life, I have from time to time episodes, when I´m very desesperate for energy. Have gone to doctors, and I don´t have anime or things like that my thyroid is fine... still I have problems to keep up my daily activities when this hungers awakes on me. Hi Jade, you are not a vampire, but you may be doing astral travel or something other of the sorts idk i haven't done it but be safe, but im going to. Try to think sleep and do more running in the day make yourself physically tired. I hope that helps. Phsysically tired, only stresses me more. Even if I´m burned out. I can´t help but to be ver astral and active in the other side. I´m regaining my balance, but not at all. Still have episodes. I´ve learened I don´t feed from the living. So I´m not a vampire. |
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Post by Confused on Nov 16, 2015 21:50:17 GMT -5
Its not an awakening and i couldnt change the tittle. I dont know whats with me when i was 10 my eyes solid black rings around them, when i was 11 they turned from solid blue to solid grey. When i get hungry the black circles around my eyes thicken even more. Every time i eat, it feels like this food is not for me, even though i like the food i feel theres something missing. Every time i get a cut (lets say on my finger) ill lick it off and it would taste SOO good and if i licked a couple drops off to make it stop bleeding, ill be full for the rest of the day. im not sickend by it. I get tired in the day and wide awake by night. If someone around me ia energetic i feel like the complete opisite of that, and if im around some one tired i feel energetic. (wtf?!) My interest in uruas and things super natural spiked up a lot more then normal. I never really thought as much about the super natural and vampires. untill i became 13. literary 2 hours after mid night i woke up and i i wanted to do was study the SP and vampires and it nevee stopped
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