Possible Sang Awakening

[meloncollie79]

Okay. I'm gonna start this off by saying that I have always had an odd infatuation with vampires, ghosts, witches, and the supernatural in general. But I am also a person who believes in logic and things with strong factual evidence. My logical side has always battled my supernatural side. I believe vampires and other supernatural beings exist. I believe in disease that resembles the supernatural. Anyhow, I never thought for a second that I of all people could become anything supernatural. Lately though, I have began to see signs of the supernatural in myself, realizing things that signaled to psychic abilities in my past. As of recently I have become more tired than ever, my iron deficiency is at it's lowest and my skin is so pale it's basically translucent. People often comment on how cold my skin is and how the veins show straight through. The sun is like poison to me. I went to carowinds last weekend and I was out only 20 minutes (wearing sunscreen) and I had already developed a small sunburn and a pounding migraine. Since last month I have developed a thirst inside me, I've been drinking so much water my stomach swells. I used to be a vegan of sorts until this recent month but I can't keep my appetite at bay when it comes to steak, as rare as I can have it. God I crave it, blood. I experimented with my current boyfriend last month, told him it was a kink, and I drank his blood. I haven't done it since because he didn't like it, but I felt so alive and didn't want to stop. Perhaps I have a mental illness, maybe not. All of the things above can be explained by science and psychology. But what I cannot explain is what happened in my past. As a young girl I remember interacting with the dead, and possibly demons. I won't get into it, but believe me I will never forget what happened. A few years ago, 2013, I started seeing the number two everywhere, I saw things in 2s for two months. All I could think was 2.Come November I had a dream my house burned down, the 2s kept raining down on me. 2 days later, November 13 2013 my home burned to the ground. That I cannot explain with sound logic. Which leads me to believe I have been in the process of awakening for a while, and something recently stirred the inner monster. I've no idea what to do, I think I'm crazy. If any honest to god vampires are out there and willing to speak to me about this, please, contact me.

[fractal]

i awoke about a year and a half ago.

i have no belief in the spiritual side of vampirism so i wont be able to help you there.

however i do believe that vampire are very much real but i wouldn't say supernatural.

your not crazy cause if thats true then i should be in a mental asylum.

it seems you have awakened already

for me the cravings became more managable after a while. however the method by which i got desensitized was painful. see my best friend is the only person that knows about me being a sang, in fact... she's the once that caused my awakening. anyway, she has this nasty habit of annoying the heck out of me, so she would talk to me about blood and how nice it would be to drink blood and stuff, and her just talking about it triggers the cravings, which is a pain in the arse. on the other hand, after about a year of this im getting better at controlling the cravings which is quite handy cause i used to get them randomly which is not great.

explaining that your a sang to someone is really quite hard, so find someone you trust and know really well and tell them. who knows maybe you'll get a potential donor as i did.

my best friend, although annoying at times, does in fact feed me and its just enough to keep side effects of not feeding off. all sangs are different and i dont need much blood to get buy... although i sure as heck wouldn't complain if i got extra.

i dont know that much about other sanginarians but i think some have consistent cravings that are always there, and then there is me whom gets inconsistent cravings, but the cravings are really really bad.like, there was this one time i almost bit my finger off.

i have discovered a few ways to help with controlling cravings. the way my cravings works is i start thinking about blood and then i start wanting it. its best for me to stop thinking about blood ASAP, and for me snapping my head hard to the left is enough to jerk me back to reality... unless said friend is continually talking about it.

im reply to the other things apart from blood cravings that might signify your a sang/vamp.
-I have a really good sense of smell (when its not blocked by hayfever)
-im anemic
-i have really good hearing
-i find darkness comforting to be in
-when i haven't fed a while light gives me a headache (bright light)
-my eyes adjust quicker to darkness than they do to light
-i have really fast reaction speeds when im not thinking about it: i can catch things that i only see in the corner of my eye with one hand without even thinking about it sometimes
-blood doesn't gross me out, ive always had a fascination with blood

thats all i can think of

good luck