Post by sarana on Jun 26, 2019 11:02:37 GMT -5
Good afternoon/evening.
My name is Sarana and I am 56. I have been reticent about coming out as such because I have spent most of my life hiding, not from others but from myself, I was, I am afraid to say ashamed of what I am. Never staying in one place for longer than a couple of years always moving on. I realise I was looking for something that in reality I would never find; answers; and after reading every word on this site I have realised that the answers were with me all along. Seeing the traits listed logically was like looking in a virtual mirror.
Back in the eighties I went through the Goth stage but became bored very quickly with the almost pantomime way in which some people behaved. I have few friends and even fewer I trust.
However, after locating Steve's site it became very clear that the more I read the less reason I had anything to be ashamed of, and more importantly it is something that I have never been able to change.
My elder brother was acutely aware that I was 'different my reflexes were significantly faster than his also my ability to understand people before they even spoke was unnerving to him. However, he stuck by me.
The first realisation came during a family holiday to Europe when I was 16 my father had Steak Tartare I asked if I could try and woofed it down and asked for more. That evening my brother commented on how much pinker I was; I was always paler than the other children. It lasted for a good three days or so.
Over the intervening years I have tried many different types of red meat however, it remains Steak and raw Lambs liver that provides me with the most satisfactory results regarding general appearance and well being. I have only taken human blood on maybe a dozen occasions over the years yet, the effects are more pronounced than animal blood. My first time surprised me just how richer human blood is. As Steve says it would be so much better if we could simply buy it!
It is not a craving that I feel but a need that continually gnaws away until I do something about it, I do eat 'normal food however, I never feel satisfied like something is missing.
Well that is my introduction, I have came here to hopefully find friends of my own kind.
I will upload an avatar when my device decides that it doesn't hate me.
Any questions please don't hesitate.
Sarana x
My name is Sarana and I am 56. I have been reticent about coming out as such because I have spent most of my life hiding, not from others but from myself, I was, I am afraid to say ashamed of what I am. Never staying in one place for longer than a couple of years always moving on. I realise I was looking for something that in reality I would never find; answers; and after reading every word on this site I have realised that the answers were with me all along. Seeing the traits listed logically was like looking in a virtual mirror.
Back in the eighties I went through the Goth stage but became bored very quickly with the almost pantomime way in which some people behaved. I have few friends and even fewer I trust.
However, after locating Steve's site it became very clear that the more I read the less reason I had anything to be ashamed of, and more importantly it is something that I have never been able to change.
My elder brother was acutely aware that I was 'different my reflexes were significantly faster than his also my ability to understand people before they even spoke was unnerving to him. However, he stuck by me.
The first realisation came during a family holiday to Europe when I was 16 my father had Steak Tartare I asked if I could try and woofed it down and asked for more. That evening my brother commented on how much pinker I was; I was always paler than the other children. It lasted for a good three days or so.
Over the intervening years I have tried many different types of red meat however, it remains Steak and raw Lambs liver that provides me with the most satisfactory results regarding general appearance and well being. I have only taken human blood on maybe a dozen occasions over the years yet, the effects are more pronounced than animal blood. My first time surprised me just how richer human blood is. As Steve says it would be so much better if we could simply buy it!
It is not a craving that I feel but a need that continually gnaws away until I do something about it, I do eat 'normal food however, I never feel satisfied like something is missing.
Well that is my introduction, I have came here to hopefully find friends of my own kind.
I will upload an avatar when my device decides that it doesn't hate me.
Any questions please don't hesitate.
Sarana x