Post by soulessraigne on Aug 19, 2012 13:35:38 GMT -5
I'm not a vampire...yet..? or so I think. I am neutral about vampire stuff. I was just surfing the net looking for topics about migraines and light scare-ness disease and the tse-tse bug disease. Then I stumble on one site saying symptoms of vampirism, then I stumble this site too which has almost the same symptoms list as the first one. The first site doesn't have a forum so I can't ask there.
I am already 25 years old, female and I think I had a pretty normal life. I never get to know my dad, My mom's a working mother, I had two older brother and sister. I grew up with my grandmother who was called witch by the locals. Even though I was an introvert person since my young age, I was pretty good at everything I do be it one sports, good at arts and academics, I was never been bullied coz my classmate finds me intimidating back then. So I think it was pretty mundane ordinary life which I am very happy to have. Both of my parents already leave this world. My brother's living on his own, my sister was married. Grandmother moves to the province when I was still in Elementary, I heard she already pass away. Me living a fulfilled life with a good career in a leading banking industry. Good in handling stocks and due for another promotion. BUT....
This year my perfectly normal, happy life started to crumble, it all started with me staying too long under sun coz I join an out-reach program for less fortunate people. I can stay long under the sun as far as I know back then with just a few redness on my skin but this time it resulted to blistered all over my body and my head feels like they are splitting in two and started to vomit like hell for a couple of days. I had gone a derma-specialist it was noted I maybe allergic to sunlight. Which I never had before but the doctors says allergies changes as years goes by. I had gone to neurologist for my head ache said that it was a possible - vertigo with migraine and had gone CITISCAN and MIR which result are all normal. Still the doctor posted it as vertigo with migraine. Then now I hate traveling during the night, Coz the lights from almost everywhere keeps glaring me I end up with my head feels like cracking in two. Before last year I never had this problem. I love night, stargazing, and night life party. I also had a general check up my blood result was all good but I just remember I thing that I always hear when a nurse prick me with the needle, that I easily blood-clot so they had to prick and prick and prick again to gather enough blood sample. Right now I am suffering a great deal of problem. I always felt so sleepy during the day. I tried not to, but damn it was like I had a tranquilizer shot, my eyes just closed by it self. My work was during the day so its really hard on me. I even consulted the doctor that maybe I had a tse-tse bug disease. (rare sleep-disorder disease) but I was just given sleeping pills so that I can sleep at night too but the problem is they are not working since I am wide awake during the night. Maybe because of this problems I end up with mood swings and my BF broken up with me coz I always end up arguing with him over little things. Lately I have gain weight coz I always end up with this excessive cravings that I have to eat something but no matter how delectable the food I don't find it appetizing, I end up eat portion of about everything still I can't get enough and now I find an alternative to satiate this craving by eating chocolates, drinking water and water until I was full.
But after reading the symptoms here, I was like hey...hey... Isn't it all sounds so familiar?
1) Vampires are naturally nocturnal. ---This one is just resent just started this year, I am suffering a great deal of problem right now about it.
2) Vampires are sensitive to sunlight and bright light. --- skin redness during younger years but it was horrible now. The doctors says its skin allergy to sunlight and my headache was a vertigo with migraine.
3) Vampires have enhanced physical senses such as vision, hearing, smell, touch and taste. ---- I don't know at night since I hate now traveling at night coz the light glares me and gives me headache. but during high school I so love the night I was always star gazing. While hearing, smell,touch and taste are always keen for me. Specially the smell that's why I never wear perfume since the smell is too much for my nose, I always experience the things like ~ the smell makes its like tasting it already and I can tell what ingredient used on foods just by eating stuff.
4) We are faster and stronger than average people with comparable exercise regimens and health. ---I was in the track and field but had to quite since I can't take the heat so much.
5) Vampires have quicker reflexes and greater agility than most people. --- well that comes naturally since kid days until now my friends always says "nice catch" or nice timing.
6) We don't get sick as often or as easily, and we heal faster than average people, whether it is a physical injury or an illness. --- I often get sick like what I listed up there, I had skin allergy to sunlight, had migraine or so that doctors told me but cuts and wounds heals a lot faster. The doctor says it was because my blood, they say it has the characteristic to blood clot easily that why bloods always stop faster and wounds heals faster.
7) Vampires are gifted with psychic abilities. --- I don't know about this one but I always experience thing where I always end up saying "hahaha... DEJA VU."
8) Often vampires find that they were drawn to the myths, stories and images of vampires from a young age.---- I am drawn to myths, the Norse mythology, Greek mythology, Chinese legends or Japanese urban stories. I love reading isn't that the norm?
9) Although we need to maintain a healthy and well balanced diet, vampires tend to have various gastrointestinal sensitivities and problems, such as food allergies/sensitivities or eating disorders. The eating disorders can be to either extreme. We can lose interest in food because we have a desire or craving and whether we realize what that craving is for or not we do know that the available food will not satisfy it. To the other extreme we can be overweight due to overeating in an attempt to satisfy a constant hunger or thirst that we can't identify or can identify but what we need is unavailable at the time. --- I can't drink milk in the morning doctors says it was lactose intolerance. But like I say I am in constant hunger it was like hunger every two hours and no matter what food there is in front of me I don't find it appetizing I end up not eating but sweet things so satiate my cravings.
10) We tend to have extreme swings in our mood or behavior. --- My psychologist says it may due to stress coz of my sickness. At least she didn't says it was BI-POLAR disease.
11) Other traits that have been associated with vampires are depression, melancholia and a sense of being different or separate from others that are considered to be "normal". --- right now I think I'm emotionally down but not depressed. I just want to be cured, even though I gone here and there with so many doctors and taking pills they prescribed It's not really working fine with me so I just want to know how to deal with it!
12) We are also said to be of above average intelligence, although at times it certainly doesn't feel like it to us. --- Just above I graduated in the 80% top of class, not a genius who graduated with flying collars. Just above average
13.) Cravings for blood --- Even though I had natural fangs. NO, I don't think I can drink blood. I'm a Catholic, so I'll never tried that. ( though I lick my hands when I got cuts with knifes or sheet of paper, but really I don't feel anything about it, it tasted tangy and sweet.)
Maybe I am just desperate but since no doctors has been able to teach me how to deal with this sudden changes. They all ruled out it was skin allergy -meaning I just had to stay away from it, same with vertigo and migraine. I can't sleep at night well since I always nap during the day. it was just a sleeping pill to cure me. my mood swings was because of stress. I just want help how to deal with it? Is this the awakening thing? Am I not too old for that? IF THIS IS AWAKENING WHAT CAN I DO TO GO BACK ON HOW IT WAS USED TO BE?
I am already 25 years old, female and I think I had a pretty normal life. I never get to know my dad, My mom's a working mother, I had two older brother and sister. I grew up with my grandmother who was called witch by the locals. Even though I was an introvert person since my young age, I was pretty good at everything I do be it one sports, good at arts and academics, I was never been bullied coz my classmate finds me intimidating back then. So I think it was pretty mundane ordinary life which I am very happy to have. Both of my parents already leave this world. My brother's living on his own, my sister was married. Grandmother moves to the province when I was still in Elementary, I heard she already pass away. Me living a fulfilled life with a good career in a leading banking industry. Good in handling stocks and due for another promotion. BUT....
This year my perfectly normal, happy life started to crumble, it all started with me staying too long under sun coz I join an out-reach program for less fortunate people. I can stay long under the sun as far as I know back then with just a few redness on my skin but this time it resulted to blistered all over my body and my head feels like they are splitting in two and started to vomit like hell for a couple of days. I had gone a derma-specialist it was noted I maybe allergic to sunlight. Which I never had before but the doctors says allergies changes as years goes by. I had gone to neurologist for my head ache said that it was a possible - vertigo with migraine and had gone CITISCAN and MIR which result are all normal. Still the doctor posted it as vertigo with migraine. Then now I hate traveling during the night, Coz the lights from almost everywhere keeps glaring me I end up with my head feels like cracking in two. Before last year I never had this problem. I love night, stargazing, and night life party. I also had a general check up my blood result was all good but I just remember I thing that I always hear when a nurse prick me with the needle, that I easily blood-clot so they had to prick and prick and prick again to gather enough blood sample. Right now I am suffering a great deal of problem. I always felt so sleepy during the day. I tried not to, but damn it was like I had a tranquilizer shot, my eyes just closed by it self. My work was during the day so its really hard on me. I even consulted the doctor that maybe I had a tse-tse bug disease. (rare sleep-disorder disease) but I was just given sleeping pills so that I can sleep at night too but the problem is they are not working since I am wide awake during the night. Maybe because of this problems I end up with mood swings and my BF broken up with me coz I always end up arguing with him over little things. Lately I have gain weight coz I always end up with this excessive cravings that I have to eat something but no matter how delectable the food I don't find it appetizing, I end up eat portion of about everything still I can't get enough and now I find an alternative to satiate this craving by eating chocolates, drinking water and water until I was full.
But after reading the symptoms here, I was like hey...hey... Isn't it all sounds so familiar?
1) Vampires are naturally nocturnal. ---This one is just resent just started this year, I am suffering a great deal of problem right now about it.
2) Vampires are sensitive to sunlight and bright light. --- skin redness during younger years but it was horrible now. The doctors says its skin allergy to sunlight and my headache was a vertigo with migraine.
3) Vampires have enhanced physical senses such as vision, hearing, smell, touch and taste. ---- I don't know at night since I hate now traveling at night coz the light glares me and gives me headache. but during high school I so love the night I was always star gazing. While hearing, smell,touch and taste are always keen for me. Specially the smell that's why I never wear perfume since the smell is too much for my nose, I always experience the things like ~ the smell makes its like tasting it already and I can tell what ingredient used on foods just by eating stuff.
4) We are faster and stronger than average people with comparable exercise regimens and health. ---I was in the track and field but had to quite since I can't take the heat so much.
5) Vampires have quicker reflexes and greater agility than most people. --- well that comes naturally since kid days until now my friends always says "nice catch" or nice timing.
6) We don't get sick as often or as easily, and we heal faster than average people, whether it is a physical injury or an illness. --- I often get sick like what I listed up there, I had skin allergy to sunlight, had migraine or so that doctors told me but cuts and wounds heals a lot faster. The doctor says it was because my blood, they say it has the characteristic to blood clot easily that why bloods always stop faster and wounds heals faster.
7) Vampires are gifted with psychic abilities. --- I don't know about this one but I always experience thing where I always end up saying "hahaha... DEJA VU."
8) Often vampires find that they were drawn to the myths, stories and images of vampires from a young age.---- I am drawn to myths, the Norse mythology, Greek mythology, Chinese legends or Japanese urban stories. I love reading isn't that the norm?
9) Although we need to maintain a healthy and well balanced diet, vampires tend to have various gastrointestinal sensitivities and problems, such as food allergies/sensitivities or eating disorders. The eating disorders can be to either extreme. We can lose interest in food because we have a desire or craving and whether we realize what that craving is for or not we do know that the available food will not satisfy it. To the other extreme we can be overweight due to overeating in an attempt to satisfy a constant hunger or thirst that we can't identify or can identify but what we need is unavailable at the time. --- I can't drink milk in the morning doctors says it was lactose intolerance. But like I say I am in constant hunger it was like hunger every two hours and no matter what food there is in front of me I don't find it appetizing I end up not eating but sweet things so satiate my cravings.
10) We tend to have extreme swings in our mood or behavior. --- My psychologist says it may due to stress coz of my sickness. At least she didn't says it was BI-POLAR disease.
11) Other traits that have been associated with vampires are depression, melancholia and a sense of being different or separate from others that are considered to be "normal". --- right now I think I'm emotionally down but not depressed. I just want to be cured, even though I gone here and there with so many doctors and taking pills they prescribed It's not really working fine with me so I just want to know how to deal with it!
12) We are also said to be of above average intelligence, although at times it certainly doesn't feel like it to us. --- Just above I graduated in the 80% top of class, not a genius who graduated with flying collars. Just above average
13.) Cravings for blood --- Even though I had natural fangs. NO, I don't think I can drink blood. I'm a Catholic, so I'll never tried that. ( though I lick my hands when I got cuts with knifes or sheet of paper, but really I don't feel anything about it, it tasted tangy and sweet.)
Maybe I am just desperate but since no doctors has been able to teach me how to deal with this sudden changes. They all ruled out it was skin allergy -meaning I just had to stay away from it, same with vertigo and migraine. I can't sleep at night well since I always nap during the day. it was just a sleeping pill to cure me. my mood swings was because of stress. I just want help how to deal with it? Is this the awakening thing? Am I not too old for that? IF THIS IS AWAKENING WHAT CAN I DO TO GO BACK ON HOW IT WAS USED TO BE?